Well it says here that its the year of the rat, but I am a rabbit so x3 woopee *twirls finger in the air*

I don't really pay attention to chinese zodiac, or horoscopes for that matter, but it is important to some people. I think its kind of cool that you can somewhat see how someone is really on the inside by looking at an "accurate" horoscope book. Now it won't tell you everything, but it will give a little bit of an idea on how someone acts, and if you don't believe me you should read it sometime. Usually the most accurate ones are the ones where you have to put your bloodtype, birth time, where you were born and stuff like that.

I don't know why I decided to post something about horoscopes, but because I can't remember what I dreamt about last night, this is just as good ^^

today was fun..

we were swamped again.. I didn't mind though since all we needed to do was make pizzas x3

um..

I am tired xD

and the really funny part of yesterday was I was watching a movie and some girl took her shirt off and I saw some breasts and my dad was like "cover your eyes"

I am 19 years old <<;
if I haven't looked at a female by now I am lost xD

but yeah, at that point of the movie I started playing games on my computer ;3

I have almost 3000 tickets on live search club..;D

getting closer to that xbox 360 <3<3<3

I drew a picture today, don't think I will scan it though, not yet anyway..
maybe I will color it too? ;3

this is B signing off for tonight x3

today was.. boring I guess..

is what I normally would say =p
that is until we got swamped, and ran out of all the dough x3

so many people came through that door today, all because of subway and their remodeling..


I just got off work, and I have to go in right when I get up >>

8 am to 1 pm, not bad..but I would rather work at night ^^;

umm..
I have been thinking of ways I can up my selfesteem since I still am having little episodes of sadness..

like..letting myself have fun, drawing more, just..doing the things I like to do.

That and save up my money, so that I can actually have a life xD
I will manage my money better..that may help me feel better.

I need to not worry so much about all the little things..

^^ Thats all for now I suppose x3

well..its been a really long time since I used LJ ^^;

Jewel says its a good idea to write things down, about how I feel and what happens during my day..so I might as well give it a shot..

umm.. not much happened this morning, though Travis is being really annoying <<
won't do anything because he doesn't look "ready" to go outside, can't even pick up any of the grocieries..and then keeps bothering me to walk the dog.

uh.. as for drawing life..I really haven't drawn much..not for any particular reason, just that I left my drawing pencil at tims and now its not mine no more =/

my package finally got to her..<3 I am so happy that she liked everything ;3

I don't have much to give, but.. it was all I could do ^^

and umm..

I am trying to quit looking at naughty pictures..its bad for me and I need to stop so I can mature into a better person, and maybe get smarter instead of wasting my time doing nothing =p

since I promised her I would quit, I have only looked at it twice, which is really good, considering how often I normally used to look at it..soon I won't look at all, and I will be free of it ;3

I owe so much to her..she really changed my life :D

Thanks..my little Kisu <3

As for work, its the same as it used to be xD except I don't have any pins in my hat..well I found two in the bathroom and put them in =p

I cleaned the whole parking lot..took me an hour to do but it was worth it, darn kids and their litter..and all those cigarette butts ><

Jose broke the register like a tard xD
sometimes I wonder if he even thinks at all =p

but then again, I do things that are stupid too so..xD

anyway, thats all for now ^^

I don't want your life to be ruined
I don't want to ruin anyones life
I don't want to feel this way
I don't want anything other than to just..be me
thats all I want..
but I can't be me
because..if I am me, then people will suffer
...
there is nothing I can do to make up for what I did
and I am sorry
I don't need you as a lover..I need you as a friend
I won't let my foolish emotions get in the way again
I will make things good again?
who knows?
but I can't be the one who destroys all of our lives because of some silly feeling that probably isn't real...and I am sorry..I just am sorry..I didn't want to hurt anyone..I am just stupid, and I can't think..thats the truth of it. I don't know what i was trying to do..I apologize..to everyone, you know who you are, I let my desire get in the way of our friendship, and its tearing us all apart...its time for me to make things right. I am going to force myself to not feel anything..thats the best way. I realize that its dumb to do, but what else is there? I fought so hard to protect what they had, only to do something that just makes things harder on them..

he was right..I don't know what I want, or at least I didn't...what I truly want, is for all of us to be friends again...is that even possible? probably not..but...I want to try! Please let me try..

Dan, Mandie, and Brittany..I am sorry!

I think I might be getting the hang of this place xD nothing really interesting to say, except, if you have ANY neopoints at all, please donate some to wolfxdog on neopets..!! she would really appreciate your help a lot ^^ peace out again xD

Hello this is my first time here ^^ I hope it will be a pleasant experience xD

I am really tired from DDR =D

I am still trying to figure out what options I can play with here,

Till next time,

your favorite furry red Dragon, Ryu ^^